Within is More Vast Than What is Before Your Eyes

   Being able to speak to the dead is a very disruptive thing in the real world. It can be, to the point of causing an adolescent to consider suicide. Growing through ones teenage years are awkward enough without being clairvoyant.  When I was young none spoke of it, there were no television shows, no meet "so & so, medium to the so & so's", it was something my other friends didn't seem to have. I was an outcast looking in, into my inner being for this is where to search when ones is feeling suicidal.
   Please don't misunderstand me, I had friends growing up, but never seem to have what was considered a normal relationship in life that resulted in a husband &/or children,: again much of the pressure felt to measure up to what society seemed to expect again brought dark thoughts of leaving this world. Eventually, my life finds me living in Charleston, S.C. In which all is new again except that it is extremely haunted.
    This is where it gets even more interesting, as if being clairvoyant isn't enough excitement in life. I have now met spirits that tried suicide & were successful in dying by their own hand. As I have gotten while encountering these spirits is how limited their darkness is; not only does the light of spirit elude them, they seem to remain within confines that prohibit them from repent.
    In many religions, in many beliefs the taking of life is sacred. Some even believe that there is empowerment in the taking of life. Some believe life is a gift, to be kept well and cherished often; for the light of life is in us all. This is what speaking to the dead has taught me to care for my spirit, to nurture my spirit in regards to the respect that all living things deserve and to celebrate with joy in my heart for what I have: It is only relevant to the here.
    Once our physical being has meticulously counted our self worth; a change comes in an instant & like a caterpillar in a cocoon, we emerge, & our inner beings embark upon a new journey of life. Some do not do well with change, so they remain and continue as they always have doing whatever it is they were doing in life; in this case the living are a nuisance that is in the way. Some go forth and embrace the change they follow the light created by the many spirits moving along; some have said they need to keep moving, some have told me they went and chose to be there; others get stuck in the quagmire of emotions surrounding something they can not let go of. Suicide spirits are confined by their feelings for themselves only, therefore they do not communicate well because they have now amplified that which drove them to leave all that they love of life.